Values and goals are what makes you, you. There are so many things I have been striving for since I was young. Now that I am becoming an adult it’s time for me to put these dreams in to action.
Last fall I met people who I had shared values with but not dreams. What I wanted and what I dreamed sounded crazy compared to anything these people could ever imagine. They wanted to stick around our hometown, someday make their future family here just how their parents did for them and work the average 9-5, same scheduled life. I was never this girl until I met them. I thought to myself that maybe I could do it. Work in an office, a cute boutique downtown, maybe even a stay at home mom. I could be average.
Average is not what I was born to be. I was not created to live a life of mediocracy. Settling for a life when you know you deserve something more will only end in self regret. I was created to in-power, to create a world that only I can dream. Don’t get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with average or a simple life. Average shouldn’t be seen as a negative word, but as a descriptor into the life of the non adventurer. I crave different, I crave excitement and exploration. Even as a kid growing up I was always out getting into something just out of pure curiosity. I would find creeks and woods and I would just go out on a limb (literally) and adventure (although it might have led to falling in creek water and losing flip flops a time or two). The life I’ve become accustomed to is just not for everyone.
Distancing myself from these people has drawn me back to my dream. New York is my dream. New cultures, new people, new cities, new love; that is my dream. I want to live each and everyday not as my last, but as my best. I want to strive to be better than anyone has ever expected me to be.
Coming from a mid-sized city in Indiana, a whole lot is not expected of me. Greatness is not expected. Making a difference in the world is not expected. Anything above average is not expected. My parents since day one wanted what all the other parents wanted. They hoped I’d become a happy kid with a college degree working a random townie job (local university, office job, maybe even a townie typical factory job) or doing whatever else this place has to offer. Don’t get me wrong my parents 100% support my dreams. What I’m not too positive on is how much they believe that I believe they will ever happen. I am here to tell you that I WILL make my crazy thoughts come to life. Whatever you give me, I will make something of it and I can promise you that. I promise I will make something of myself.
Being told “do you really think you’ll make a life for yourself that way?” or “are you sure that’s really what you want to do?” is the hardest part of dreaming. Sometimes I think about the times I’ve told people in the past about all I inspire to be and these are the “back handed” responses I’ve gotten. These responses are the hardest to give a comeback on (mostly because I’m in shock that someone could be so inconsiderate). Knowing that a person you care about and trust enough could say something as heartless as that is where I get stumped. So many times people will make it all about the money. “But you might not make it with that pay” How many times do you hear a child say, “when I grow up I want to be a ________ because of all the money.” It’s not often unless this is the way they are raised from the beginning (huge mistake parents). What I am trying to get at through is that it is not about the money!! It is about the calling. What you feel in your soul and your heart that makes you say “this is what I need to do.”
WE ARE ALL DREAMERS!! No we do not have all the same dreams, no we are all not the same person and no we do all not have the same ideas of success. This doesn’t mean that my dreams and love of fashion will not get me as far as your “exciting” and “intelligent” engineering degree. What will get me far is my will and my passion to be all I can be. Stop living logically and start living the way you love.
I have wondered and I was lost, but now I am found. It is my time to create something everyone only dreams of. My goals are set high and though it’s going to be a long and scary path, I will push through. l will have “a great big, beautiful tomorrow.”